Try, try, try

All my life, I always wanted more and more; I begun to think I was selfish. I asked God for more, but most of the time, all I do is bicker and whine, like what I'm doing now! I thought I was totally the worst kind of Christian, and even when God told me I'm a strong warrior, I still detested and despised myself. So all I'm gonna do now is to keep at it; keep living life to it's fullest. There was this cd called "Faith" which God asked me to buy, actually it was more like He prompted; he let's, never makes. Sure he made us, but he'd never make us do something. It has been 1 year and two months since my accident. I have asked God to let me be more like Him, and wow! It is darn hard! One of the many things He is, is that he's fickled. Fickle funk, catchy rhythms; unpredictable.
                                          You gotta have faith,
                                          You gotta have mercy,
                                          You have got to have a positive mindset

Those are lyrics of a song (something like that) that I'm composing. Songs and television shows really speak to me these days.